6 months

So today was actually a pretty good day. I'm finding some great things to do with my time! I think starting tomorrow I'm going to start working out Which is good because I need to get into shape before I get my top surgery done. It was really cool too. I'm starting to buy new stuff for mine and my sister apartment. I got the kitchen done I think. All I need now is pots and pans. I found a cool entertainment stand. it was an ugly brown so I went down to the store and pick up some black paint and painted it. I thought it was going to turn out gray which would have sucked but when it dried it turned back so that was pretty sick...Nothing more is really going on with all my stuff. Now I'm just waiting. I need to get down to Portland...it kind of sucks because I heard that people couldn't give T when they haven't seen you in person. So I'm going to start to travel to Seattle every other week it looks like. So within six months I should be starting to grow some hair on my face and stuff. So that is really tight. I'm still a little iffy about not be able to get my top surgery done for awhile after being on T so I'm looking at it like this. I need to save up 6-8 grand. Within that 6 months. I'm sure I can do it. I'll be making a little more a grand and a half a month. So it shouldn't be no problem. I really have nothing to worry about anymore. I don't need to save money to see my ex anymore which helps a lot... Ahhh what else...I let all those girls know that I don't want a relationship anytime soon. I kind of hurt but I never felt like that before. Its a weird I hurt but I feel good. I feel like I need improve myself so I think all of this should have happened I needed it to push me...So that is proof everything happens for a reason...I didn't forget to hurt or to remember what I had but its kind of like "Wow, I really was kind of lost in that relationship" her and I both have a lot of growing up to do. So maybe who knows we can actually stay friends because I think she'll make a really good friend but as of right now we both just need to clear our heads and move on from our feelings we had for each other. So I'm kind of happy about all that. HAHA so I'm really sleepy. I'm going to get some sleep.